Nov 11 - Nov 12

I decided to write about current events before I do catch up which never seems to be possible.

Last weekend, we (the whole family) had planned on going to Pittsburg. Rangesh and family was supposed to meet us there. On the way back, Sridhar maama was going to come back with us. But.... with Abhay still not fully recovered, I decided to stay back with him. It was a relaxing day. Abhay had a long tub-play-bath. Then had a very light lunch as he was still throwing up after meals. We both slept for 2.5 hrs. Then came the tough part as the evenings are the hardest and it has always been so. We played in the new ball tent for a while, watched some TV, had dinner. When it came time to sleep he did not want to be upstairs. He finally slept on me but facing the door hoping his dad would be back soon. Dad came home by 10 but Abhay was asleep by then.
Sunday was a different day though. We had lunch and headed over to Mt. Vernon - General Washington's estate. Abhay had a blast. he was a little irritated at being restrained as we did the tour of the house. Once outside, the vast estate was his playground. He has a hard time restraining himself while running. He ran full blast downhill but with so much momentum he could not stop himself and did a full roll. He was not hurt but the shock of it had him bawling. But all that lasted for less than a minute as he was then off running again. Anyplace that has so much space for Abhay to run around and not get into too much trouble rates an "Awesome" in my books these days.
Monday morning blues set in on all of us on the way home.
I still feel real terrible whenever he starts clinging to me. It is a very vicious cycle. He clings to me, I feel guilty that he is missing me and I become more tired from this emotional drainage and become irritated. Sampath sees this and wants to help and tries picking him up - but he will not go to him. This irritates all of us. Abhay - because he is being taken away from mommy, Sampath - because he will not go to him. Me - because I am tired. My MIL - because "you don't come to me when your mom is around". All in all - HARD!!!!!